RESTLESS

It's 3:30 in the morning and I am up because the spirit inside of me is restless. Memories of you are stirring up seeds of suppressed feelings and emotions of anger and resentment that were planted by you. They are causing a ripple affect that vibrates around my soul like like a whirlwind building up velocity to form a tumultuous tornado. I get up to pray and ask God to cover me with His love and surround me with His grace and mercy so that enemy of my soul will not come through or penetrate my spirit like a virus designed to destroy the body. I begin to bring my thoughts under subjection and strive to have the mind of Christ. I need compassion and must forfeit revenge. I surrender to love and turn away from hate and disdain. I embrace patience and release myself from the temptation of fiery rebellion. I engulf myself in the power of forgiveness and look to the Father for forgiveness for my soul. I will not let all the pain and wrong that you have showered me with drench my soul into the dark nothingness that you live in. God has given me free will so I choose to be free.

I seek the truth that is deep inside me this morning and will tarry until the sun comes up. I take myself into the spiritual realms so that I can walk through the garden with Him. It is in this place that I will meet with my Savior who is the lover of my soul. I will come to that place and reconcile with my God and receive my deliverance. Jesus is the Truth and I will be set free. What soldier can concentrate on the battle at hand if he has to constantly have his mind set on the things of his home or his past which is so far away. When on assignment to the front of the line a soldier's basic survival is dependent on his focus of the task and duty at hand. I keep my mind stayed on Christ and bring all the negativity under subjection. My freedom comes from knowing that God is in charge and I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.